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Positive + Smile = Happiness

by Yesterday's-Now ( 0 comments )

Sunday, August 23, 2015
August 23, 2015

Salam and haiii!

okay, this few weeks has been a very hectic week for me.

yeahh, its already come to an end for this semester,

I must say, its probably the worst sem I faced so far.

*Studies is under control maybe.

I just need to double or triple up my effort.

I know that this is not my hardest effort that I gave.

I realized that I'm a little bit blur, a little bit playful this semester.

I need to always be POSITIVE and revise back EVERYTHING!

well, stop playing and get you head in your game.

be FOCUS.

don't always lalai in social media.

and don't ever ever ever think NEGATIVES!

Somewhat, I'm totally worried about my grades and promise myself that I want to put 101% effort in my studies but, I don't do it.

well, I need a very strong SUPPORT from my parents and friends.

I need that! seriously.

Kept thinking about it makes me very scared, very demotivate and just feel like crying.

but, NEVER GIVE UP until it ends!

do whatever you can in this short time.

"Take care of your health and study smart. I know you can do it. I'll doa for you"

those words makes me feel stronger everyday.

*Emotions-Mentally not prepared

I will always hope that every semester would be the OKAY semester.

I don't wish for a GREAT semester. but, OKAY was enough I think.

but, well you know, sometimes (or probably many times), things can go wrong

It will not always going to shine your way with happiness.

there's always rain and storm in your own way.

in life, we need these TESTS.

a life test.

without this, we will never know our strengths and weaknesses.

Hurt.

Give some space in your heart for yourself.

Don't hope too much when you're not sure it is yours - you will be hurting yourself.

But still, find the space, you can accept the truth, no matter how painful it is and move on.

"Love yourself first before you love somebody. Never take anyone for granted. When you realized, but it's already too late - you will regret"

Always be yourself, not others.

I learn a lot from this.

well, you know, it's a normal thing to like someone, to admire someone.

but, don't like or admire it TOO MUCH.

or you'll end up hurting yourself.

life is like that.

when you like someone, it doesn't mean that person likes you back.

faced it!

well, it take sometimes to know someone's heart before deciding it.

I'm sorry if I ever make mistakes or obviously showing that I like you.

but, it's a normal thing as a human being.

I can't lie about that.

and I know that you also like someone else, or maybe someone I know.

Waiting is pain, but, it's okay.

If I ever have the intention to be closed to you, I'm sorry.

From now on, I won't do that again.
I just need to distance myself from you, it's not because you're bad or something, it's just that, I need to protect my heart from hurting.

What I've seen now, it's just more than enough.

you're close but, yet so far.

well, I just need to stop giving and start to accept more.

Be positive - probably, you're not the one for me.

And I understand it so much.
No need such explanation.
I won't be in between both of you.
I hope that both of you will be together soon. :)

In certain point, life has been difficult for you. that you have been having a tough time.

things that you worried about, it will find way of working out.

Just need to stay strong.

Every people deserve lots of love and happiness. you deserve the best!

Stay positive. Good thing and good people will come.

No matter what makes your heart sinks, always know that you will be okay.

"If you have to choose between me and someone else, pick them. I don't want to spend the rest of my life with someone who is going to question if they have made the right choice"

Week 13 & Week 14

3rd year 1st semester has come to an end.

dah habis dah study utk sem ni.

tggal nak p jwb exam je.

Semoga dipermudahkan segalanya.

to GeoNinjas, let's rock this semester!

eh, slip exam dah amik lah! :D

BBQ night with coursemates.

aku rasa, 1/3 je yg dtg ni.

xpelah, aku tak kisah pun.

aku have fun mlm tu, drpd semua berusaha nk nyalakan api, smpai ke makan2, and tgkp gmbr.

tp, terus terang aku kata, bonding tu dh makin berkurang dr hari ke hari.

slalunya friendship bond tu makin kuat klau lg lama kita kenal org tu.

tp, aku tak dapat bnda tu.

ke, aku yg tak cukup attractive utk nk mempromote event?

brgkali mmrlukan org lain utk handle event2 class mcm ni?

aku pun xtaulah.

aku rindu masa2 foundation, masa2 first year dlu.

seriously aku rindu masa tu.

semua org bersatu, semua org sekepala.

klau buat bbq ke, jamuan apa ke, smua org smgt nak join, nk tolong jugak.

tp, skrg, smua org dh ada komitmen masing2.

and jujur aku kata, naik 3rd year ni, bnyk sgt masalah, bnyk sgt berpecah.

kawan saling bertukar setiap tahun.

bila tgk balik gmbr masa foundation, 1st year dlu, smua org ada.

tp, aku bersyukur sbb ada lg yg still nak kawan dgn aku.

yg mmpu bertahan dgn aku.

aku doakan terbaik utk semua org dlm course aku.

aku taktaulah mcm mna kita nnt.

aku cuma fikir, tak lmbt lg, kita nak p intern dah, masa intern, tak semua dpt tempat yg sama.

tak semua boleh p lepak2 mcm skrg.

lps intern, ada 2 sem je lg utk nk berhuhaaa skali.

klau tak support, mcm mna kita masa final year nnt?

takkan tak tegur langsung?

klau org buat mcm ni, hambar je.

enth2 jamuan final year antara coursemate pun xde.

hohohohooh, sedihnya hidup.

tp xpe... let's just go with the flow.

aku taknak satu hari nnt aku mnyesal sbb aku tak enjoy masa aku study.

sementara ada 2 tahun lg ni, jom lah enjoy life a student! :)

bila dh kerja, bila dh kawin, ada family nnt smua, aku jamin, mmg xkan ada masa.

nk gather pun masa kenduri apa2. tu pun smua tak dtg.

nasi lemak hunting

last ITM class.

banyak sgt dugaan dgn subject ni.

*tayar kreta dipancitkan secara SENGAJA lps test itm.

*CD yg diburn hilang taktau p mana. tp, dah hntr dah kt lecturer. lpstu lecturer kata takde.

*3 KALI kena bg SOFTCOPY video itm. maigaddd. aku taktaulah tiba2 hilang or sengaja dihilangkan? pelik kannn? every week lecturer tnya, Group 10 mana korg pnya CD and softcopy?

hei... dugaan dugaan.

last class Drilling.

fuhhh, belajar drilling mmrlukan kesabaran and pemahaman yg tinggi rasanya.

tp, nasib baiklah dpt lecturer yg memahami, mmbantu and cool!

August 21, 2015 - #MarathonDay

acah2 je mula2 nk rehatkan diri la apa la.

pdhal, report tak siap lg.

pdhal, mlm before tu stay up buat report kt lab smpai 3.00 pagi.

mula2 progress slow jgk pagi2 tu.

lpstu, dh kluar p mkn kt cafe, haaa kau kalut!

smua bnda jalan jeeee....

nak hantar report pkul 3.00 ptg tp, siap print pkul 2.55 ptg.

fuhhh kau, berlari acah2 nk pass baton lah kononnya.

lpstu, yg lps ke dpn, trex sorg je.

marathon dr bilik ke Block 16(pocket C) dlm masa 5 min. dh smpai kt depan pigeon hole lecturer.

wowwww, it's a record.

balik tu penat smua org trus mandi.

lps mandi n dh relax2 jap, nak masak.

mmg kteorg plan nk buat roti jala and kari ayam

so, yeah start smua mmg sronok lah.

sbb ada trex, ed, moknik n frin.

skali, hmmmm makguard dtg.

"Oh...masak rupanyaaa!! report nnt bru tau!...... haaa, masuklah"

skali, ada maintenance yg masuk.

kteorg smua mcm WADEHEKKKK???

wehhh, ckplah ada maintenance nk masuk ke apa. bolehlah take cover p amik tudung ke apa.

dah la maintenance tu gatal siap pndg lama2 pulak. mcm x prnh tgk prmpuan.

demmmm! =.='

aku mula2 dr cuak trus merundum sbb bnda ni.

heiiii fikir logic lah sikit makguard punnn, agak2 lah kan?

makguard pon pkai tdung, at least bgtau ah!

trus drpd sronok, trus jadi nak marah je smua.

nsb baik ptg tu p oval park sronok sbb p makan2 dgn diorg smua.

tenang hati aku.

hilang 'mengidam' aku nak makan roti jala.

malam tu, p tgk hitman.

okaylah jugak crita dia.

thank you for entertaining me for one day wlaupun bnyk dugaan.

takpe, korg smua ada, aku bahagia je.

merah, berpeluh muka masing2. berkilat!

nice kan? sedap wehhh! aku tukang buat roti jala! hehehehehhe. :)

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To my future....

I always pray that someone will love me the way I am.

someone who can accept the good and bad things about me.

someone who will complete me.

I'll be waiting for you.

I don't know when I'm going to meet you, but I know Allah have a good plan for us.

If the way I meet you is by traveling half of this world, I'll eventually will be meeting you.

But then, right now it's not the right time yet.

bersabarlah wahai hati.

apa2 pun yg jd selama ni, semua ada hikmah.

suka kt org tak semestinya memiliki.

suka kt org tak semestinya org tu suka kt kau balik.

mcm mana pun kau suka kt dia, klau dia suka kt org lain wlaupun org tu kawan baik kau skali pun, kau kena accept jugak.

and apa pun kau buat, klau dh takde jodoh tu, mmg tak bersatu.

so, aku rasa, cukup dah kot smpai sini je.

aku pun taknak lah berharap kt org yg tak sure langsung akan jd milik aku.

bukan nak mengelak, tp, aku je yg kena stop.

sbb aku pun taknak terluka.

and aku pun tak senang utk digunakan.

*please bear in mind*

MOVING ON.....

aku nak mintak maaf kt sesiapa yg aku ada buat salah.
aku sbnrnya penat gaduh2, tak bertegur apa.
just bukan nature aku.
sbb aku tak senang nk duduk klau tak brtegur ke apa.
pelik kottt.
wlaupun truk mana ke apa, still, that friendship tak mudah utk diputuskan.
bg aku, org yg aku kenal kt dunia ni, semua aku anggap kawan.
bkn stakat "just berkenalan" and blahhh mcm tu je.

and

aku tgh mmperbetulkan perspective aku terhadap sstgh golongan ni.
aku bukan nak kata apa.
tp, klau jd perempuan, cubalah jd perempuan yg kuat sikit.
jgn nak tunjuk yg korg terlalu 'lemah' ke apa dgn meminta simpati org lain.
aku tak sruh jd kasar or ganas ke apa.
tp, bg aku don't be like a little girl. be like a woman.
an independent lady..
aku xtaulah klau dgn org lain, tp, aku tak mampu nk 'follow' dgn prngai mcm ni.
mcm budak2, but the fact is, you already in your 20s / 30s.
ni pendapat aku lah.
peace no war okayyy.
but in the end, well you know, I will accept it no matter what.
Cause you know, people are not perfect.
or they said "every people has their own 'unique' ways"
there's a lotttt of other people out there.
but still, I'm trying to get used to it.
So, please, help me people!

Aku nk ckp, Good luck kt GeoNinjas yg nk jwb exam khamis ni.
be prepared korg!
All the best for all papers.
Drilling > Volume > Management > Malaysian Studies > Basin Analysis
sama2 kita doa bg dipermudahkan masa jawab exam tu nnt.
InsyaAllah... aminn...

yg penting, senyum slalulah! *kan manis kalau senyum.
wlaupun hati sakit ke, hati sedih ke..
please be strong!
you know you can.
sbb Allah takkan bg ujian kpda hambaNya klau hambaNya tak mampu.
klau menghadapi kesusahan, banyakkan berdoa.
sebab Allah yakin dengan kemampuan kita utk hadapinya. :)